She looks adorable and like you, I would not want to cause her any more pain. I am of the opinion that all life has a spirit and the spirit just goes to a different plane.

I remember a poem I read once that said something along the lines that "you are in a different room in the house....it just hurts 'cos I can't see you". Just remember that NOTHING can take away the memories that you have. They are yours, and yours alone.

I loved the fact you put her in the window too. So thoughtful and loving.

I cannot share what you are going through, I can only empathise, but be assured my heart is with you both. My worst loss was my Ruskie. He was 17, a Russian Blue and my constant companion. I spoke to Cattrainer Rameses on here when it was AS, and he told me he understood how empty I felt without him. He had trained cats and other Big cats all his life and he knew how special Russian Blues could be. Ruskie escaped out the door in his last illness. I scoured the estates and everywhere, put up posters, went door to door...he was gone. He went away to die...he knew that was the way it was meant to be....for us.

I know he is always with me and I will always be blessed for the little time we had together...and no-one can take that away from me.

Titania is beautiful, and reminds me of my fluffy Tara, who is funny enough sitting looking out the window at the moment. I also have 4 other cats...all different, all mad...all unique.

Much love...